This yearly thing.

It has been a tradition for me to write something down before the year ends. So here I go again, sharing my whatnots.

2011 has been a great and tough year for me. For my chums who are in familiar terms with me from top to bottom, they very much know what troubles I went through and what I did to make things okay. I don’t want to talk about the negative things that much, so let’s just say that I learned a lot from them. It’s been tough as hell because of some decisions I had to make for myself. It was harder because I have to consider the people around me. I am much of the type who puts weight to what other people might think so I try to be careful. But sometimes, unpleasant things happen and you just got to live with it.

2011 brought hellos and goodbyes at the same time. Well, it is hard to say goodbye to things and routines I have been used to, but nothing’s definite so the point came that I had to let go of those to give way for better whatevers. This brings us to hellos. Hellos which brought wow (in good way) to my life. These hellos and goodbyes are part of those decisions I had to make, decisions that I will and shall never EVER regret.

This year I also learned how to accept my flaws. I’ve been judgmental, hypercritical, unreasonable, fault –finding, a pain in the ass, a brat or even a bitch but hey, I’m only human. I don’t want to talk big about this but I learned how to exchange blows with some people who are total ass shits. :)) It’s not something to be proud of; it’s just that I did it for the first time. :D It was a noble deed for me, I felt like a hero because I fought for myself and a couple of friends, but it came to a point that I was excessive with my repugnant actions. I was a total bitch. I brainstormed all my actions and I knew I was wrong. I realized that all I needed to do was to forgive and forget. The process is too hard but I know I can do it. Yes, I’m still in the damn-hard process. Like what I’ve said, I’m only human. Shit happens.

This year gave me a reason too to appreciate my family even more, especially my Dad. I am not expressive when it comes to my feelings towards my Dad, my brother and sisters, and the others but I do cherish them a lot. Things may not be the way it has to be, but everything happens for a reason.

This year also brought me closer to God. And I’m really happy for it.

For those who have been a part of my 2011, thank you.

For those people I gave pain, intentionally or not, I am sincerely sorry.

Goodbye 2011.

Hello 2012.